One of the most beautiful sights, to me, is my precious baby girl resting peacefully, to know she is getting the rest she needs to grow and develop properly. She is not concerned about her tomorrows or what happened yesterday. She simply trusts all will be okay and she will be provided for. In fact, she expects it.
I have sat watching her sleep and wondered if that’s how God feels when I simply rest in His ability, when I trust and expect that everything will be okay? As a new mom, it can be hard to fully trust God. I have found myself wanting answers, looking for solutions, or driving myself crazy doing research.
My daughter, Kinsey, has had many difficulties in her short little life. Twice, she’s had minor surgeries in her mouth for a very restricted tongue that hindered her ability to nurse properly and get the nourishment she needed, as well as causing me tremendous pain. She is also on medication for severe reflux and has a dairy and soy sensitivity which, for her sake, limits my diet considerably.
It would be so easy to ask why. But remembering that little eyes are watching everything I do, with the help of God, I redirect my focus and ask another question. I ask Him to lead.
“The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way” (Psalm 37:23).
God knew I would be restricted in the activities I can be a part of because of my daughter’s needs and restrictions. He knew I would feel like I’m not doing my part to help pioneer this new mission field. However, this is the path He has chosen for us to walk, and I can trust Him in it. He also knew that through and because of these difficulties we would make friendships and connections we would not otherwise have made.
Do I enjoy seeing my baby in discomfort? No, but I know who holds our tomorrow. I know from experience, in relationship with Him, that He is faithful. Because I know His character, I too can rest peacefully knowing my heavenly Father is in control and desires the best for us.
“For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end” (Jeremiah 29:11).
While I wait, expecting her miracle of physical healing, my prayer is to allow these circumstances to form His image in me. I desire to be changed, to go deeper than ever before, so I can be a better mother, one who teaches by example and not just words.
Note: Khrista Favors was raised on the mission field in La Paz, Bolivia, and spent five years in Barcelona, Spain with her parents pioneering the church “Los Pentecostales de Barcelona”. She and her husband are currently pioneering the first apostolic work in the nation of Luxembourg. She feels blessed that her daughter will also have the privilege of being raised on the mission field.
(Information from: Ladies Prayer Intl October 2019 – UPCI LM – firstname.lastname@example.org)